In this installment of our Tell it Like it Is series, you'll hear the story of Pastor Ryan Howell of Crossroads Church in Loveland. Ryan is someone who's walked through the fire of faith deconstruction—not just intellectually, but personally. A pastor whose ministry now seeks to atone, to rebuild, and to heal. Maybe Ryan's story is your story too—the slow, painful awakening from evangelical certainty. The moment you realized the theology you'd been taught was causing real harm to real people. The grief of losing a faith that once felt like home. Or maybe you've always wondered: What happens inside the mind of someone raised in that world? How do you go from Bible college to blessing same-sex marriages? What does it cost to choose love over doctrine? Ryan Howell spent two decades pastoring in New England before disillusionment with fundamentalism led him west. Now he leads a post-evangelical congregation committed to healing religious trauma and reclaiming spiritual vitality—especially for those harmed by the very church he once served. Dive in to Ryan's story to hear what it really means to walk away from a harmful theology—and still believe. Still pastor. Still hope. This conversation has the power to ground us all in curiosity, care, repentance, and wonder.